Scrooge

I am officially a scrooge. I have been in the worst mood for the past week. Libby is still not sleeping good through the night, the cold nasty weather is making me foul. I have no motivation to do anything. I need some sun and hot weather in my life asap! I cannot remember a time that I wasn't at least somewhat tired. I dislike my mood and I want it to go away! I have been praying for God to help me through this funk cause it is so bad I can't even stand to be around myself! Now that is bad!

On a positive note, Libby has officially started crawling and crawled up stairs to the kitchen yesterday all by herself. Really? As I was watching her I was thinking...is she really doing this? She will be 9 months on Thursday. I cannot believe how fast she is progressing. She is a wild woman. I am so glad Brandon happened to be home on lunch cause no one would ever believe me.

I have been following the shooting in Arizona on tv the past few days. I am so saddened and burdened for the families of the victims. I am deeply touched by the 9 year old girl that was so excited to meet her Congresswoman and was tragically killed. Sometimes situations like these make it hard for me to understand. I know when its your time, it is just your time but a sweet innocent 9 year old? Thats just so hard for me to take in. I am also deeply saddened for the shooter's family. As much coverage that has been on I have yet to hear anything about his family. It is assumed a lot of times that oh he must have a troubled past or not a good family but that could be so far from true. Mental illness is real and it effects all kinds of people whether they be rich or poor, come from good families or bad families, raised in a Christian home or not. Coming from a family where a close family member is severly mentally ill, my heart goes out to his family. I can put myself in their shoes and could not imagine the pain they are going through. I not only pray for the victims, but I pray for the shooter and his family too. I just wish there was more that could be done about mental illness. To know that people are hurting so bad inside that they think their only option is to do something so horrific as to hurt and kill others is so sad. The shooter's family could have been my family on Saturday. It really puts things in perspective and makes me think. I pray and hope that nothing like that would happen but I guesss I just want to make people aware that it is not always the family's fault. I hope people don't make them suffer for his actions and that they pray for them and reach out to them like they do for the family of the victims.

Sooo Tired!!

Okay so it's back....Libby is going through one of those phases where she isn't sleeping through the night again. Her new trend is to wake up just a couple hours after being put down with a blood curdling scream. I think she is having nightmares! Then she gets up one more time after that. This has been going on for almost 2 weeks and I am exhausted. Brandon has really stepped up and helped out. He has been getting up one of the times with her even though he has to work the next day. Another reason why I love him so. I am a person that requires a lot of sleep and it is super hard on me when she goes through these phases. I wake up cussing and grunting and groaning. The other night I was up at 11, 12, 1, and then lastly at 2. He was sleeping downstairs cause he was having allergy issues which equals super loud snoring. I was about to go wake him up and tell him I was done with it but luckily it stopped after that. Can't blame teething cause there are no teeth or evidence of any. She will be 9 months next week and still no tooth. I hope this ends soon. I am exhausted all the time and it is effecting my mood and attitude.

On the good side Libby is a wonderful baby. She is scaling the wall walking down the hallway, pulling up and letting go for a few seconds at a time and is able to entertain herself and play really good. Yesterday she played 2 hours straight by herself while only coming up to me and interacting with me only a few times. She is so funny to watch. She just rolls around on the floor and acts silly. She has discovered her female parts recently and that has been a hoot. Forget bath toys..why do you need those to play with when you have a body part that is covered up 99% of the day exposed for a few minutes. Good thing she is so daggone cute and funny or I would be trading her in for a baby that enjoys sleep!

It's been a while

I have been wanting to blog more but when I have the time I don't have anything to say. I can no longer blog or get on my computer while Libby is playing anymore. She is obsessed with the laptop. She comes over and pushes buttons and pulls the screen backward. If you try to get out of her reach she cries. So I just give up. When she is napping I am running around doing housework therefore there is rarely a chance I get where nothing else needs to be done. I did do some picking up and some housework...of course there is other things I could be doing but it's okay to just sit sometimes. That is something I struggle with. I feel guilty a lot of time just sitting when there are things to be done. As Libby gets to be more active I have to be more active. I can no longer leave the room or accomplish anything while she is awake. I have to get creative when I need to do something when she is awake. This morning she was suppose to be napping while I took a shower and dried my hair. Of course she didn't so I had to pull the pack and play into the bathroom and let her watch me dry and flat iron my hair. She stood up and looked over the side almost the whole time. Love her little heart!
Brandon and I have been praying about what 2011 will bring. We are saving money and praying about selling this house and buying another one in the next year or so. We want to take our time with the process while continuing to put money back in savings. We have been so blessed with Brandon's job. We are so thankful he works for a great company and he got a nice bonus that was unexpected. They are so flexible and laid back. I am so glad that I am able to stay home with Libby. I would not give up the time I have with her for anything. I am willing to make financial sacrifices so that I can be with her. I am also praying about some friends and family that do not know God or may not have a relationship with God and that maybe God can use me. Here lately God has put into perspective that things are done on his time and not mine. I can have my plan but ultimately it comes down to whether it is in line with his plan. So bring it on 2011..with God on my side..I am ready!

AWWWW

New Year

This time last year I had just finished getting a 3D ultrasound of Miss Libby. I remember the owner of Lexington Fetal Photography commenting on how pretty her lips were and how active she was. We went to dinner that night with Jackson and Stacy and then came home where I fell asleep on the couch with company over. (pathetic I know).

Well not much has changed for this year. We are currently waiting for Libby to wake up from her nap to go to Nana's to watch the game (which it's looking like we will definitely miss some of it), then out to dinner with Jackson and Stacy. They will probably come by where I will probably fall asleep on the couch again. haha. It's funny when you get older and have a family the last thing you worry about is what you are going to wear on New Year's, getting a spray tan, or what party you are attending. I am so glad that my life has changed where those things don't matter to me anymore. Spending time with Libby and my hubby sounds like the best plan there is!

I am loving this 56 degree weather today! What a great way to bring in the new year. I have been so blessed in 2010 and I cannot wait to see what 2011 has to bring!

Christmas is over : (

I cannot believe that Christmas is already come and gone. It seems just like yesterday it was Thanksgiving. We had a wonderful Christmas and were really blessed. We received a Canon Rebel camera with an extra lens for it as well. I can't wait to read up on it and figure it all out. Santa was good to Libby as well. She was very sick Christmas day so she didnt notice anything she received. We called the dr. and he told us not to go to the E.R. and that he would meet us. He met us at his office at 8:00 at night. He is a wonderful peditrician. Libby ended up having a double ear infection and a virus. She got to discover her toys this morning.

Brandon and I were really blessed this year. Brandon received an unexpected bonus. We are praying about donating some money to a cause or charity with some of the money he received. I have learned this past year that my plan doesn't really matter. Everything is according to His plan. I have to remind myself there is always a reason for the way things end up working out. I am looking forward to what 2011 will bring. I am sure we will be surprised!

Lots going on

I was so excited for this week because Brandon took off and I was thrilled to spend time with him and my baby Pig. Time has flown by. So much has gone on. On a positive note, I won 1/2 half a photog session with the wonderful Amanda Mitchell Photography. Pig has not been sleeping well this week. I have been exhausted. She cries out in her sleep. I think she is having teething pain..no signs of any teeth yet though. We got word that Brandon's gma was not doing well at all. She had taken a turn for the worse. We went to visit her thinking we would be lucky to even see her the next day. We went to visit her today and she is doing some better. The doctors are talking a little more positive about her situation and I am so glad. It's gives us some hope cause yesterday there wasn't much. I was proud of myself for saying Merry Christmas to a mother and daughter on the elevator before I got off. Sometimes speaking to someone can make their day. It felt good.
Santa Claus came to visit Camdyn and Libby at Gigi's house. Libby cried, which was odd because she cheesed it up when she saw him at Lexington Green. Tonight we are cleaning mom's and then we are unsure of what tomorrow brings, then on Friday begins our Christmas celebrations. And before we know it...Christmas will be over : ( I am so sad that it goes so fast. The next couple weeks I am going to blog about my new obsession...budgeting and being fru-gal. It is actually a thrill when you save money or get a good deal. I might start a series or something or maybe give a budgeting/money saving tip a week. Who knows. I have to ponder it. Well I am going to get off her and relax and enjoy my time with my hubby before the Pig wakes up! Merry Christmas everyone!!