Scrooge

I am officially a scrooge. I have been in the worst mood for the past week. Libby is still not sleeping good through the night, the cold nasty weather is making me foul. I have no motivation to do anything. I need some sun and hot weather in my life asap! I cannot remember a time that I wasn't at least somewhat tired. I dislike my mood and I want it to go away! I have been praying for God to help me through this funk cause it is so bad I can't even stand to be around myself! Now that is bad!

On a positive note, Libby has officially started crawling and crawled up stairs to the kitchen yesterday all by herself. Really? As I was watching her I was thinking...is she really doing this? She will be 9 months on Thursday. I cannot believe how fast she is progressing. She is a wild woman. I am so glad Brandon happened to be home on lunch cause no one would ever believe me.

I have been following the shooting in Arizona on tv the past few days. I am so saddened and burdened for the families of the victims. I am deeply touched by the 9 year old girl that was so excited to meet her Congresswoman and was tragically killed. Sometimes situations like these make it hard for me to understand. I know when its your time, it is just your time but a sweet innocent 9 year old? Thats just so hard for me to take in. I am also deeply saddened for the shooter's family. As much coverage that has been on I have yet to hear anything about his family. It is assumed a lot of times that oh he must have a troubled past or not a good family but that could be so far from true. Mental illness is real and it effects all kinds of people whether they be rich or poor, come from good families or bad families, raised in a Christian home or not. Coming from a family where a close family member is severly mentally ill, my heart goes out to his family. I can put myself in their shoes and could not imagine the pain they are going through. I not only pray for the victims, but I pray for the shooter and his family too. I just wish there was more that could be done about mental illness. To know that people are hurting so bad inside that they think their only option is to do something so horrific as to hurt and kill others is so sad. The shooter's family could have been my family on Saturday. It really puts things in perspective and makes me think. I pray and hope that nothing like that would happen but I guesss I just want to make people aware that it is not always the family's fault. I hope people don't make them suffer for his actions and that they pray for them and reach out to them like they do for the family of the victims.