weekend update

I cannot believe it is already Tuesday! We had a great weekend! Mom and dad brought chicken over for dinner which I had been craving for forever. Nothing like some good ole KFC! On Saturday Brandon got a haircut and we went to Boyd's Orchard with friends and it was so fun! I can't wait until next year when Libby is walking and playing. She will love it. She got to sit on a hay bale and pull a goat's ear. That was about all she could do this year. On Sunday we did our makeup fall frenzy pics with Libby's halloween costume and then had family pics with my cousins with Papaw's truck. That is going to be my present to Mamaw this year for Christmas. Libby was in the pics too. She was about 2 and a half months away from being born when he died. He was looking forward to her coming.

This week has started out way better than last. Libby went through a 4-5 day phase of waking up in the night, going back down then getting back up early. It was rough! I think it was harder than when she was a newborn because at least then you go to bed knowing you are going to get up at some point but this time it was just completely random. We had gotten out of the habit and it sucked! The lack of sleep made me a big grouch last week. Libby's first word is probably going to be a cuss word now because of hearing me gripe at 2 in the morning. haha. I posted not too long ago on facebook that I wondered what it was like to sleep past 6:45 am. Well I know now...she has slept the past two nights to 7:00 am. Hey its 15 minutes but I will take it!

My attitude on things are starting to change. I feel like people will have to suffer natural consequences for their actions and have no one to blame but themselves for choices they have made. It may be later down the road but it will happen. I feel that is better than going to that person and making a big stink and then nothing changes. Ultimately people make time for what they want to make time for and make their own priorities. It is unfortunate that Libby is not in their list of priorities and that hurts me as her mother but I cant make someone want to take interest in her. I just continue to pray that I don't let my anger and disappointment consume me. I hope I can just put it off to the side in my mind and one day it will come up and I will be able to voice my hurt over it. I just have to remember that in the end they will have to answer for their decisions.