All According to His Plan

I am a firm believer that everything that happens in life is all according to God's plan for me. I don't believe things just happen or are by chance. I have been so blessed and things that have happened in my life have brought me to where I am today whether at the time I looked at it as a struggle or something wonderful. It all happened for a reason. I have to remind myself from time to time that God is in control and if I am at a "low"..there is always a reason or a purpose and to continue to trust in Him.

I totally know that meeting Brandon was a "God" thing. Prior to Brandon I struggled in an on and off again relationship for six years. I always knew in the back of my mind the relationship wouldn't work out but at the time I was looking at it with "rose colored glasses". My thought process was by golly I have toughed this out for six years...this guy is gonna marry me if I have to drag him down the aisle. (I think I just gagged a little bit..haha)! Even though I knew it wasn't right I couldn't comprehend. I would ask if it wasn't meant to be then why would we still be together for this long....so it had to be "meant to be"..right? WRONG! During the six years there were 3 break ups total. The first two devastated me. I couldnt eat or sleep. I lost 10 pounds in one week (making me like 90 pounds at that point). When the third and final break up happened I did not shed a tear. I had a peace and calmness that even shocked my mom. She anticipated me snapping at any second because I was living it up for the first time in a long time! (6 years to be exact). After that relationship ended, I met Brandon officially two months later. (We knew of each other...had not been formally introduced at that point).We started dating about a month later, were engaged after 6 months, and married a year later. I don't look back and look at the previous six years as a waste of time, but as a path that led me to Brandon. I am able to appreciate the way Brandon treats me and loves me. The previous relationship prepared me for the love and relationship I have with Brandon. I can look back and see now that it was all in God's plan. God was preparing me to meet my husband. Brandon and I had said we both wanted to try to have a babe pretty early because we aren't getting any younger. We didn't ever dream it would happen 3 weeks into our marriage but again it was all in his plan. Now we have a healthy, beautiful baby girl that I cannot imagine my life without.

Around the end of my pregnancy I felt God calling me to leave my job and the church that I was raised in. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I feel like some people don't understand my decision or judge me for my decision but I can't worry about that. I was fighting it up until the end. I knew what I was suppose to do, God was telling me but I wasn't listening. I thought you have got to be crazy if you think I am going to stay at home all day everyday...being a stay at home mom is not for me. And money? What about our finances? To take away a whole salary and add the expense of a child? You have got to be crazy. Well I was obedient and did what I was told to do and now I am started to get involved with an awesome church, I absoultely love being a stay at home mommy, and our finances are just as well or even better off then before. It was all according to his plan! We have to be obedient and trust and follow him and he will provide. I am so humbled by what all God has done for me. I think about how blessed I am and I thank God for all he has done for me and my family. Next time you are going through a "low" trust in God cause it is all according to his plan. There may be something better in the future and you may be surprised! I know i have been! : )