Will I Ever Catch Up??

Will there ever be a day where I can just enjoy my children and then when it is their time for nap I would be completely okay with myself to take a nap too? No probably not...at least not anytime soon. I am having the inner struggle with myself lately balancing time with my babes and getting everything I want accomplished. Does anyone else struggle with that? I feel that I am constantly going non-stop and when I do check facebook for a second or look at a magazine I feel so guilty. I can't stand that feeling. On top of that, I can't really run any errands by myself because if I were to go to the store I would need to push two carts which would require four arms. sheesh. We get around this by Brandon running errands with me, or Brandon running the errands, or finding a babysitter aka grandparents to let us get stuff done. The joys of having two under 18 months. I am a firm believer in God doesn't give us more than we can handle which is why I know Kynleigh is such a good baby for that reason. If she was another Libby I would not be able to function. For those that don't know I am selling thirty-one gifts, working at a dance studio, and full time mom. I squeeze in laundry, cleaning, and managing our funds, paying bills, and all else in between. I really am amazed by families that both parents work full time. How do you do it all? I mean cleaning up after every meal, washing bottles, cleaning the bathrooms, changing two in diapers, balancing the checkbook, taking one of the two for a checkup, making a grocery list, disciplining the "midget bully", dropping Libby off at school...opps gotta hurry and feed the baby before I go back to get her, unloading the dishwasher, switching the laundry over..folding it...putting it away for me and 2 girls, couponing, getting two dressed, giving two baths, getting myself ready for the day, opps someone had a blowout..oh crap no wipes..gotta refill them...oh no gotta go spray the outfit before it ruins... feeding and scooping for the cat...how does one keep up...the list goes on and on... Don't get me wrong...I am not complaining...I love my role in the family but I struggle with allowing myself to take a break without feeling guilty. I feel that I have to be doing something productive at all times and if not then I will get behind and then be more stressed. Not only to mention that I feel guilty when Libby is seeking out my attention while I am cleaning up her mess from breakfast so I stop what I am doing and chase her and then feel like that is just something else that needs to be done later. It is something I need to pray about for sure. I am putting too much pressure on myself and need to just sit still and know that it will get done and it doesn't have to be right now. Libby has been acting out aggressively lately and that has been a whole other thing added to my stress. We are having a bit of a time with her. Not to mention I am concerned for her being non-verbal at her age. We get "uh oh" all day everyday and then the other words she uses are on her terms only. Nothing ever consistent. I wonder if I am doing something wrong, what else I can be doing. I try my best not to worry because I know I am to give it to God. However I also realize I am human and when something isn't going right in my eyes I want to fix it right then and there and it can't nor should be that way. I am so thankful for everything that I have and all that God has given me. I need to remind myself not to worry...it doesn't get me anywhere...but to let go and let God.