Forgiveness...it's hard!!

This has been so busy and its only Wednesday! Any hoot....I have been and am struggling with forgiveness. Does anyone else have that problem or am I the only one? A situation occurred over a year ago and I am still struggling to let go. It consumes me and I hate it! I want to and pray to forgive but its like I can't let it go. Of course I am respectful and nice but in the back of my mind no matter what this person does, I wont let them redeem themselves. I am a loving, caring, and Christian person but this is something that has really tested me. How to do I get over it? How do I look at this person and not think about what they did? Maybe I am preventing myself from forgiving. Maybe I truly dont want to forgive them and that is what sucks cause how do I make myself want to? I say I do but do I really? In the meantime I am going to continue to pray and ask God to help me. I want to forgive like God forgives me! I have been thinking about and praying for a lot of people this week. Brooke had and lost her baby boy. So sad. I cant imagine what that would be like. I have been praying for them. It makes me feel so lucky to have a healthy baby and I dont take her for granted. Another girl I went to high school with found out devastating news that her little girl may never be able to walk again. Situations like these make me realize how blessed I am and make me feel even more guilty for not being able to forgive. I have been thinking about my brother a lot lately too and have been praying for him as well. I am also so burdened that I cant welcome him in my life right now but I still love him and pray for him everyday. I wish the best for him. I hope that God shows me how to forgive that person and finally just let go. Please pray for Brooke and her family, and Lena and her little girl.