Cecil Family Update

A lot has changed since my last post. First off, I am feeling great! I got some Celexa from my OB and I feel a million times better! I am less stressed, calmer, nicer, and feel wonderful. With Libby, I definitely had the baby blues the first few weeks. With Kynleigh I wasn't sad or depressed, I was just anxious, stressed, easily annoyed, and every little thing aggravated me. I felt my blood pressure rise with every little stressful situation. It was a completely different post partum experience. I am so glad I feel so much better!

Kynleigh is on soy formula. She seems to be doing better. She is still fussy at times and has "bad feedings" (belly rumbles, tenses up, fusses out in gas pain,etc). It is nothing near what it was though. She has improved greatly and I hope it stays this way.

Libby will be receiving speech services from First Steps! Woohoo! She did excellent at her evaluation. She is super smart...duh...but she is not where she needs to be with language. We have a meeting on Monday to determine her goals and how often she will get services. I can't wait! We are currently gradually taking away the pacifier. So far she is doing good with it. She gets it in bed, at night time, or when she gets upset. Other than that it stays put up. She has also improved at school. No wrath of the midget bully lately. Her Halloween party is at school on Monday and Brandon and I are looking forward to it! I will have to post a pic for sure!!

Ok Lord You Have My Attention

The last month and a half have been extremely exhausting both emotionally and physically. I would say I am broken. God has brought me to my knees. I am just waiting patiently and praying to see what he is trying to teach me. Ironically the day of my last post when I was saying I didn't want to go back to UK hospital, I ended up back that very day. Kynleigh was having trouble eating, very fussy, and broken out in a horrible rash all over her body but mostly on her face. I took her to the pediatrician and he was worried about something abdominal. I couldnt help but shake the feeling that the rash was a big part of what was going on but he blew it off. He sent me to UK peds E.R. We were there for like 9 hours. I had nothing to eat all day. It was exhausting. I got to the point I couldnt take it any longer. They said it was a virus, again downplayed the rash, and she was dehydrated. They pumped her with i.v. fluids. The next day I woke up with a rash. I was convinced it was bed bugs. haha. It wasn't funny then but it is now. They were itchy but nothing major. That night I went to bed and my throat was so sore I couldn't talk, and my hands and feet were on fire. I did not sleep at all that night. (okay 2 hours tops!) I got up and looked in the mirror the next morning and I was covered in red blisters from head to toe. Predominately on my hands and feet. It hurt so bad. I can't even begin to explain how bad. I took Kynleigh for her follow up and in tears I showed the doctor. He looked me over and said "well i think it's hand foot and mouth and there is nothing I can do but let it run its course..and oh by the way...it's a 10 day ordeal". Awesome! They took cultures from both of us and sent us home. Tylenol for the pain is all I was told. The reason Kynleigh couldnt eat was because she was in so much pain. But why could two different sets of professionals not accurately diagnose the first time around? They acted like I was crazy when I kept asking about the rash and pushing info on the rash. Frustrating! The mom always knows! Libby had a bit of it. She had diarrhea all weekend and has a rash on her back. I kept her home from school today but it was our turn for snack so I dropped her snack off only to be told it was going on in the class and that is where we all got it from. Anyway, I have a lot going on at the moment and I am struggling to keep up and function. I am easily aggravated, and quick to cry. Postpartum maybe? This isn't me at all. I am a strong person and can handle a lot but I am breaking so easy at this point. I keep praying for strength to get through this bump in the road. I think God is using this as a teaching moment, I am just not quite sure yet what it is. I am surrendering all control over to him. I am just taking it day by day. Today is Libby's hearing screening and my 6 week checkup. It's something everyday it seems. I am so blessed and thankful to have Brandon. I feel like at times he deserves better than me and that I don't measure up. I love him beyond words and I am just blessed and thankful that God brought us together. Keep the Cecil's in your prayers. : )

Libby update!

Well Libby didnt really have her evaluation last week. It was just an intake meeting and all we did was paperwork. She gets her hearing screening next Monday and screening the 17th. She has picked up some more animal sounds at school and is saying Addyson. Great...make a liar out of me. Regardless she still isn't where she should be for her age. I am keeping fingers crossed that she qualifies for speech services. I think Miss Libby may be a bit spoiled and mommy gets everything for her when she needs it which has taken away her need to talk. Opps.

KG is not doing well today. She has broken out in a red rash, continues to have a stuffy nose going on week 3, and she is so fussy. She screams out in gas pain. Can we say Libby all over again? Oh dear. I hope it is just a virus that is causing this and this is not the new Kynleigh. Lord help us if it is. She goes to the doctor today to see what is going on. We have also discovered that she still loves to be swaddled. We purchased some swaddling blankets and it has been a life saver. At night her arms would get out of swaddle and it would wake her up. No getting her arms out of these bad boys. We velcro those arms down!

I really honestly don't know where September went. KG was born on August 26 and September was a blur. I don't want to remember September with the hospital stay etc. Not a fun month. If I were told I had to take her to the hospital again I think I would flee the state. It almost broke me down. I don't think I could handle that again anytime soon. We got what the bill may potentially be after insurance in the mail...not too pretty.

I am continuing to run around all the time like a chicken with my head cut off. October is a busy month for me between the girls dr. appointments, my 6 week appointment, thirty one parties, dance, Brandon's 10 year reunion, etc. I am looking forward to the first week in November to go to Piegon Forge. I am excited to get away! I guess that is about it for now....gotta go pick Miss Libby up from school then off to the dr. with little bit. Woohoo!