Borrowing Wednesday...

I am amazed at how boring my days are that they go by so fast! Libby eat, sleeps, poop...and I wash bottles, clothes, eat (when I remember), work (from home of course), and try to nap, and okay maybe watch Dr. Phil daily too : ) I sometimes feel like I am in jail and out of touch with reality. When I get in the car and drive it feels like I am breaking out of jail and I am free!! I look forward to when Muffin comes home from work for lunch just so I can communicate with another adult and ask him what the weather feels like outside. However, I would not change my situation for the world. I am so blessed to have a happy, healthy baby! I thank God for her everyday! She means so much to me! Even though my new way of life is going to take some getting use to, I would not have it any other way!

Feeling Refreshed!

Its Monday morning and after a very long hard weekend I am ready to start my day and I am feeling refreshed! Libby had some major gas issues on Saturday night and so she did not sleep at all that night nor did she sleep all day yesterday. My mom came to the rescue and thanks to her Brandon and I slept well last night. She called the pediatrician and he told her to try the mylicon drops and apparently they worked wonders! Thank goodness!! The stress of constant visitors and people in and out of my house is still getting to me but at least I havent had any more break downs. I am looking forward to what the week will bring! I am about to head in to work for a bit then back home to hang out with Lib! Oh did I mention I have lost 30 pounds? So happy!!

Being a Mom is Hard!!

So I have only been a mom for 9 days and it has flown by! I have a new respect for teen and single moms! There are not enough hours a day to get the laundry done, work, pick up the house, change and feed the baby, keep up with friends and family, and the list goes on. I dont see how single moms that work and go to school do it. It amazes me! I feel like there is something that always needs to be done. It is extremely overwhelming. I feel guilty if I have ever judged someone in that single parent role and I have asked for God's forgiveness. God has shown me so much the past few days and I have learned alot! I am extremely blessed and I thank God several times a day for what I have. The situation that happened with my dr. has put a lot in perspective. You never know when tomorrow may be your last or a loved ones last. So please never take for granted what God has handed you and cherish everyday and every moment.

Baby Blues

Throughout my pregnancy I have read and heard so much about the "baby blues" an postpartum depression. In fact I remember rolling my eyes when my nurse brought the subject up with me. "Yea, yea, whatever...won't happen to me", I thought. Well never say never cause it did! Libby is one week old today and the week has been a blur. So many people in and out of the house, combined with trying to figure out the whole "mom" thing is exhausting. People want to come and see the baby and hold her a way I dont want them to, or get in her face, or want to go in her room and touch her stuff. Of course people are just excited and have the best intentions but it is draining. The first few days I felt like I hadnt even had the chance to bond with her because everyone else was holding her. I had my first melt down on Sunday. It felt good to just cry and let it all out. I feel a world better since then. However I am still quick to cry or feel anxious. I hope that this feeling goes away soon along with my stretched out hanging belly. It is so depressing to not have any clothes to fit, be pale as a ghost, and swollen all over. Once I get back in shape I know I will feel a ton better. The best advice came from a friend that said, "it took you 9 months to get that way...it's going to take more than a few days to get back to your pre-pregnancy weight". That made me feel a ton better and put things back into perspective. Each day that goes by I know it will get easier and I keep reminding myself that. Dont get me wrong I love love love Libby Rose and wouldnt trade my situation for the world. It is just going to take some time getting use to my new life.

On another sad note, I had another good cry yesterday but it was for a good reason. My dr. that I had spent so much time with going to see so frequently and fortunately got to deliver Libby had a massive heart attack and may not be out of the woods of surviving. The news hit me like a ton of bricks. It just puts things in perspective and makes you realize that you should never take life for granted. You never know when a day may be your last. Enjoy life and thank God everyday for the many blessings that you have.

It has been a long time since I blogged...and a lot has happened! I went to the dr. on Monday April 12, on my due date. The dr. said that I wasnt making any progress and that I would need to be induced the following day. He said he didnt want her to get any bigger. I was very fearful because I have heard tons of horror stories of inductions and labor in general. My fear kept me from being excited. After I found out the news I went to work for a bit to prepare for being out of the office for at least a week. I felt these weird movements from Libby. I didnt think anything about it, I just enjoyed feeling her move on a daily basis. I went home and packed for the hospital and ran some last minute errands. During those errands I started to feel weird and told Brandon that I felt like Libby was going to fall out any moment. I could barely walk. We went home after going out to eat and went to bed early. I had to be at the hospital at 7:00 am the next day. When I went in I got hooked up to a heart monitor for Libby and a monitor for my contractions. I had to be monitored for 30 minutes prior to start the pitocin. The nurse asked me a bunch of health questions as I laid in the bed being monitored. Then to my surprise she said, "Do you feel those contractions? You are having contractions 2-3 minutes a part and I havent even started your pitocin". Then she checked me and to my surprise I was 2-3 cm dilated! That much random progress in less than 24 hours! Joke was on us, I was already in labor. She started the pitocin. The dr. came in around 9:30 and broke my water. He found that Libby had pooped so she was going to have to be taken to the nursery immediately after delivery and be monitored for a required 4 hours. I was sad because usually the baby is allowed in the room with the mom and family for an hour before being taken to the nursery. I continued to dilate very quickly throughout the day. I had one scare where Libby's heart rate dropped drastically. The nurse rushed in and flipped me on my side (I couldnt move from the epidural) and put me on oxygen. Libby's heart rate improved and everything was okay. Before I knew it, it was time to push. I pushed for 30 minutes got to see Libby for two seconds and then she was taken off to be cleaned up and monitored. The whole family rushed in to see her for a few seconds and then they all ran out of the room following the nurse to the nursery. There I was all alone. lol. No one cared about Joni anymore. It was all about Miss Libby. It was too funny. Anyway I have been very blessed to have a healthy baby girl and an easy labor and delivery. The picture is Libby's car ride home from the hospital.

Last Appointment....(we hope)...

So I am in the process of getting ready for my dr. appointment. Lets hope this is the last. Today is my due date so we will discuss options as to how to motivate Miss Libby into joining the world. I have been blessed to have a good pregnancy. I had complications the first 16 weeks or so but it has been smoothly sailing up until the last week. Sure my side hurts, I am short of breath, it hurts when she moves, but over all I cannot complain! I have been so blessed and I cannot wait to meet her, although I do wish I could bypass the whole labor and delivery part. If anyone knows how I can do that then please let me know! Pain is never fun and its especially never racking when you know its coming and you are going to have to go through it. Well I guess I better finish getting ready! Muffin will be here in about half an hour to pick me up! Say a prayer for me and the Lib!!

Boo For Stubborn Libby!!

So I had my 39 week dr. appointment yesterday. I didnt get to see the doctor, he was out of town so I saw the nurse. She informed me that my cervix is still hard and pushed far back and there is no dilation progress. So what this all means is Monday is my due date and she is no where near ready! Very frustrating!! And you know what else is frustrating? The fact that 2 people who were do on my date or a couple days after had their babies this week! No fair! Libby is being a little stubborn butt! I just want to see her so bad that I cant stand it! And I kinda want to go to the tanning bed realy bad and start working out!! I have a wedding to get ready for in Florida in 8 weeks! yikes!! And I need the time to figure out a schedule and routine and figure out this mom business before I go!!

I go back to see him Monday and he will decide what to do. I vote C-section and lets pull her on out! lol! 4 more days until we know Libby's fate....

39 Weeks!!!!

So today I am officially 39 weeks pregnant. I am suppose to go have this baby a week from today if she doesnt come on her own this week. Last night I thought it was time. I woke up with this funny pressure feeling in my back. And.....then.....I suddenly realized it was just Jeter stretching his feet out and his was pushing his feet up against my back...haha.

I was so blessed to have a fantastic weekend. On Saturday we had a cookout with all my friends to celebrate my bday. The weather turned out perfectly and everyone was able to make it!

Yesterday was my birthday, we went to church then over to my aunt's for a lunch. Mamaw fell out of my parent's car and then didnt want to eat anything because she had fallen. But boy when my mom brought her a cupcake, she scarfed that thing down! haha. She is always entertaining! I love it. We visited with the family for a while then went on to my parents house. We ate birthday cake and got to look in our Easter baskets. I got my birthday card as well. We also got to open up Miss Libby's Easter basket. It was so cute!!

Now its back to work : ( Hoping this week goes by fast!! Maybe we will have some good news by Wednesday!!

No Progress : (

So I had my doctor's appointment yesterday...still no progress. It is set, she will be taken on April 12th if she does not come before. That is 11 days...I think I can handle it! Can't wait to see her! Then I will probably want to put her back in..lol. Just kidding!!

So my grandma came to see the house yesterday. She loved it! I was so pleased that she was pleased because she is hard to please...does that make sense? Anyway, she really liked it! As she stood up to leave she ripped the loudest fart ever! haha. Brandon had to go in the other room cause he was crying laughing and everytime I caught my mom's eye she giggled. It was hillarious. I dont think my grandma had a clue what she had done. I loved it! It made my day. haha.

Well I finally got my windows tinted, looks really good..thanks to my mother-in-law. It was my birthday present. Now we can go to Florida in June without the sun in Libby's eyes! Can't wait!!

I took a walk last night. It was sooo nice and I met a pretty orange and white kitty that lives up the street. He was very sweet. He wanted to walk home with me and Brandon. I loved him. Jeter would die if he knew we loved on another feline. Then afterwards I treated myself to a yummy slice of chocolate cake with chocolate icing from the Kroger bakery. It was delicious! Of course Brandon had to get a cupcake since I got something.

I am looking forward to dinner with Miss Tiff tonight. I havent seen her in a while! Hopefully I can sneak another walk in. This weather is amazing! Just a few more days...then happy birthday to me!!!