This Weekend

That about sums up this weekend! Took a nap during the yucky UK game and Libby loved her Halloween goodies from her Nana!!

Halloween is coming!!!

I cannot believe it is Thursday already! I am super stoked about dressing up and going to a Halloween party tomorrow night! I can't wait! Piglet is staying at my house with Nana. They are going to have a slumber party! Libby is finally sitting up. I thought there was something wrong with her. She isn't great at it but she is just learning. I am looking forward to spending some time with my hubby this weekend. I am so blessed to have him...I know I say that all the time but I really am! That's about all I have for today. I will post of pic of Libby on halloween! yay!

weekend update

I cannot believe it is already Tuesday! We had a great weekend! Mom and dad brought chicken over for dinner which I had been craving for forever. Nothing like some good ole KFC! On Saturday Brandon got a haircut and we went to Boyd's Orchard with friends and it was so fun! I can't wait until next year when Libby is walking and playing. She will love it. She got to sit on a hay bale and pull a goat's ear. That was about all she could do this year. On Sunday we did our makeup fall frenzy pics with Libby's halloween costume and then had family pics with my cousins with Papaw's truck. That is going to be my present to Mamaw this year for Christmas. Libby was in the pics too. She was about 2 and a half months away from being born when he died. He was looking forward to her coming.

This week has started out way better than last. Libby went through a 4-5 day phase of waking up in the night, going back down then getting back up early. It was rough! I think it was harder than when she was a newborn because at least then you go to bed knowing you are going to get up at some point but this time it was just completely random. We had gotten out of the habit and it sucked! The lack of sleep made me a big grouch last week. Libby's first word is probably going to be a cuss word now because of hearing me gripe at 2 in the morning. haha. I posted not too long ago on facebook that I wondered what it was like to sleep past 6:45 am. Well I know now...she has slept the past two nights to 7:00 am. Hey its 15 minutes but I will take it!

My attitude on things are starting to change. I feel like people will have to suffer natural consequences for their actions and have no one to blame but themselves for choices they have made. It may be later down the road but it will happen. I feel that is better than going to that person and making a big stink and then nothing changes. Ultimately people make time for what they want to make time for and make their own priorities. It is unfortunate that Libby is not in their list of priorities and that hurts me as her mother but I cant make someone want to take interest in her. I just continue to pray that I don't let my anger and disappointment consume me. I hope I can just put it off to the side in my mind and one day it will come up and I will be able to voice my hurt over it. I just have to remember that in the end they will have to answer for their decisions.

New Normal

I got my hair cut and hilighted the other night. I got a lot cut off because I was trying to cut out layers and grow out bangs. I had to go ahead and do it because my grey hairs are everywhere, my hair was frizzy on the ends and I have pictures on Sunday. My cousins and I are doing surprise pics for my grandma for Christmas. We will be in Papaw's old truck. It will be such a great tribute to him. Any poop I can't be in pics with my hair looking like that.

I had a great convo with my hairstylist. It's funny how stuff I talk to her about stuff I wouldn't tell close friends or family. Maybe it's because she knows me but not enough to judge or something...whatever it is it is an interesting relationship. I think she is a really great person and she has been going through some tough times the past year. She was telling me how she had to move out of her nice house and into an apartment after having been married 25 years. She was talking about how her apartment is nice but she is having a hard time getting use to "her new normal". When she said that I reflected back on some times that I had to get use to my "new normal". The new normal of not being pregnant anymore, the new normal of having a baby to take care, the new normal of being a stay at home mom. I hadnt really thought of it before but that is what is so hard about life's transitions. You get use to a way of life and when something changes it's not necessarily bad but it just takes some getting use to. I was pregnant for 9 months and I had gotten use to that and had identified myself as a pregnant woman. Then when I wasn't pregnant anymore, it was good, but I had to readjust so it caused some temporary saddness and confusion. Does that make since? Probably here in a couple months I will go see my hairstylist and she won't think anything different of living in her apartment because it is her new normal. Hmmm interesting...just hadn't really thought about it.

Woohoo for internet!!

I wanted to blog this morning while Libby was napping but my cat ate through the internet cord again! This is the 2nd internet cable that he has eaten in 2 months! He has been peeing outside the box and chewing on everything! I am a little over it! It is so nice to have the internet back! I didn't realize how much I enjoy it until it is gone.

Brandon and I had a good weekend. We went to the UK game and enjoyed watching the CATS pull off an amazing win over South Carolina. One of the best games that I have ever been to! When we got home we discovered a croupy baby. We were up and down all night Saturday night and did not get much sleep. On Sunday Libby felt better to an extent but refused to nap. Mom came over and helped out. She is awesome! I don't know what I would do without her. I am so blessed to have a great mom. She didnt think twice about coming and helping out while some others never even called to check on her. Oh well, I will shut up before I go on a tirade about that.....it's starting to get harder and harder to hold my tongue these days..I have been praying for strength.

Libby has felt a ton better today. She is still raspy and you can tell it hurts her throat to sneeze but other than that she is doing well. She has napped really well today and allowed me to go back to bed this morning. She had her 6 month well baby check up today. She is 14 pounds, 9 ounces, 25.8 inches long and doing well. I guess the shots weren't too traumatizing because she is jumping away in her Jenny Jump Up. She is a hoot. I need to make Brandon upload a video of her on facebook. She looks super funny right now because she doesnt have pants on. So picture chunky white legs hanging out of the jump up with her Tazmanian Devil band-aid on her leg. haha It's a hoot!

I am looking forward to the rest of the week and what it has to bring. Tomorrow and Wednesday are my long days so once those are over it is smooth sailing the rest of the week.

6 months

Wow! Yesterday was Libby's official 6 months. I cannot believe it! What I do with my time before she was born? I guess a lot of tv watching. She is amazing! She babbles "dada" (of course she would do that before mama), she rolls over, she scoots around, she eats baby food, she poops, she laughs, she crys, and that about sums it up! haha. I am enjoying every moment and trying to take it all in and embrace it. Before I know it she will be a teenager! AHHH

All According to His Plan

I am a firm believer that everything that happens in life is all according to God's plan for me. I don't believe things just happen or are by chance. I have been so blessed and things that have happened in my life have brought me to where I am today whether at the time I looked at it as a struggle or something wonderful. It all happened for a reason. I have to remind myself from time to time that God is in control and if I am at a "low"..there is always a reason or a purpose and to continue to trust in Him.

I totally know that meeting Brandon was a "God" thing. Prior to Brandon I struggled in an on and off again relationship for six years. I always knew in the back of my mind the relationship wouldn't work out but at the time I was looking at it with "rose colored glasses". My thought process was by golly I have toughed this out for six years...this guy is gonna marry me if I have to drag him down the aisle. (I think I just gagged a little bit..haha)! Even though I knew it wasn't right I couldn't comprehend. I would ask if it wasn't meant to be then why would we still be together for this long....so it had to be "meant to be"..right? WRONG! During the six years there were 3 break ups total. The first two devastated me. I couldnt eat or sleep. I lost 10 pounds in one week (making me like 90 pounds at that point). When the third and final break up happened I did not shed a tear. I had a peace and calmness that even shocked my mom. She anticipated me snapping at any second because I was living it up for the first time in a long time! (6 years to be exact). After that relationship ended, I met Brandon officially two months later. (We knew of each other...had not been formally introduced at that point).We started dating about a month later, were engaged after 6 months, and married a year later. I don't look back and look at the previous six years as a waste of time, but as a path that led me to Brandon. I am able to appreciate the way Brandon treats me and loves me. The previous relationship prepared me for the love and relationship I have with Brandon. I can look back and see now that it was all in God's plan. God was preparing me to meet my husband. Brandon and I had said we both wanted to try to have a babe pretty early because we aren't getting any younger. We didn't ever dream it would happen 3 weeks into our marriage but again it was all in his plan. Now we have a healthy, beautiful baby girl that I cannot imagine my life without.

Around the end of my pregnancy I felt God calling me to leave my job and the church that I was raised in. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I feel like some people don't understand my decision or judge me for my decision but I can't worry about that. I was fighting it up until the end. I knew what I was suppose to do, God was telling me but I wasn't listening. I thought you have got to be crazy if you think I am going to stay at home all day everyday...being a stay at home mom is not for me. And money? What about our finances? To take away a whole salary and add the expense of a child? You have got to be crazy. Well I was obedient and did what I was told to do and now I am started to get involved with an awesome church, I absoultely love being a stay at home mommy, and our finances are just as well or even better off then before. It was all according to his plan! We have to be obedient and trust and follow him and he will provide. I am so humbled by what all God has done for me. I think about how blessed I am and I thank God for all he has done for me and my family. Next time you are going through a "low" trust in God cause it is all according to his plan. There may be something better in the future and you may be surprised! I know i have been! : )

I want Christmas Now!!

Well I am suppose to have Piglet and myself ready to go out to SEBC to help with the payroll taxes (probably for the last time for a while) in an an hour and a half which includes feeding her cereal and I am blogging about how I want Christmas now..really? haha. I am craving Christmas so bad! I want to put lights on the house, go Christmas shopping, wrap presents....so crazy! I didn't start craving Christmas until the other day when I bought these delicious smelling air wick refills ...warm harvest is the smell but it just reminds me of Christmas. Its funny how smells and songs can remind us of certain things. The smell of my car actually makes me gag because we bought my car when I was only a few months pregnant in the sick phase. The smell of my car takes me back to that time and makes me want to barf everytime I get in...wierd huh? Its so funny how the mind works. I guess I better get my butt in gear..I'm starting to smell an unpleasant aroma....hmmm....

It's Tuesday..Yay!

Today is Tuesday and it is my long day but I am super excited because I basically don't have any responsibilities the rest of the week because it is fall break! The house was cleaned yesterday and I have Addyson and Rebecca today and that is it! Tonight Brandon and I are going to go to a Bible Study at a younger couple's home. We are excited about going. Brandon and I had another restful weekend and my grandma got to see Libby again on Sunday. I am so glad she is getting to enjoy her. I just wish that my Papaw and other Mamaw could have met her. Libby is 25 weeks today! Wow!! Is that possible? She is amazing and I am loving every minute of being at home with her! We are cutting back and making sacrifices but it is all worth it!

Sigh

All I want to do is sigh. I feel really good about things that I have been stressed over. Our finances are looking good, I'm loving spending everyday with the Piglet, and the weather is amazing! I am surrounded with wonderful friends and family. I am loving fall! The leaves are so pretty! I want to pick out a pumpkin, go to an orchard, dress up for halloween...cant wait! I am looking forward to going to a cookout tonight and introduce Miss Libby to some other babies. She hasnt really been around other babies so I am anxious to see what she does. I am taking her to meet her cousin Presley in Cincinnati next Sunday. The girls are 5 months apart and I cant wait to watch them grow up together. I have a small family and I love that Brandon has a large family. There will always be someone to play with at family gatherings, weddings, etc. My next big task over the next few weeks is to prepare to move Libby to her room. I dread it because I love knowing that she is at the end of my bed but it is also very convenient. Her room is in the back of the house so if I do have to get up with her I will have to get up and walk all the way to the back of the house. In a few weeks she will be 6 months old (is that really possible?) and its about time to start operation cry it out. I dread it! Wish me luck!